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Mon, 27 Oct 2008 05:54:15 GMT

who is TraitorousCoho on aim?

hello

Mon, 27 Oct 2008 05:18:19 GMT

new trail of dead is great. 1 pack of cigarettes a day does not seem to be nearly enough. Mad Men should not have taken the rightful place of an absurd horror movie, fucking show, a time piece how novel. it was nice enough to go for a ride today and i am very out of shape. everyone should watch City Of Men, and La Dolce Vita both really good films and enjoyable. thinking sleeping until spring or picking up drinking again. take it easy everyone

poor little mouth

Thu, 29 May 2008 21:16:47 GMT

two women with their hands in your mouth both holding dental instruments and drilling at will is a very painful situation. chocking on your own saliva and that horrid tasting spray they use isn't much fun either. they kept telling me to open my mouth wider then i could, even with out a large needle of nova-cane in my jaw. crazy stuff and i have to go to it again next thursday.

almost done

Fri, 16 May 2008 03:22:14 GMT

i only have one more class this semester and then i am free.
fuck lost so hard
we need rain and clay

sunday morning

Sun, 27 Apr 2008 08:02:01 GMT

it's not easy being 7.5 but i will continue to try despite very odd conversations that have been taking place as of late.

I've also come to the conclusion( after many films) that i'm not ready for vampires.

the new billy bragg is great.

tuesday morning

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 06:59:03 GMT

-been diggin' alot by this weekend i should have at least one jump running.

-i seem to be unable to sleep latley even less then usual but that means i have more time to be productive

-it's been super nice out latley but we need rain like maybe 3 hours a day for a week.

-people get to hanging out!

-i need something new to read any suggestions?
take it easy

tuesday.

Tue, 15 Apr 2008 15:44:08 GMT

if anyone could find me a full length of Mazzy Star covering "heroin" i would be very happy and in their debt.

starting to clean up the woods; who wants to dig?

get to check some body bags tonight hoorah for death & dying

bowling this week who is in?

it's nice out so i'm going out there. take it easy

haha

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 20:03:15 GMT

GET OPEN!

junk

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 00:56:41 GMT

so last night i broke my lower leg tibia or tibula something like that. i also broke my anckle. dilocated my anckle and managed to have one of my own bones tear out of my skin. styaed in the hostipal last night and had surgery. not i have a metal plate some where in my lower leg a bunch of bolts and i can't do anything active for 5 mounths yes.

recent

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 06:10:18 GMT

i hit a fire heidrent. i did not even go off the rode about 3 inches of it sticking over the curb. i was tired and not paying attention to that. i hit it. got covered in glass and lost about 2g's in a very quick amount of time. not so fun but in good new is a little while i will have the camry pimped out with at least two different color doors, maybe even three. oh yeah whiplash kinda makes you grumpy. come hang out everyone.

where are you guys?

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 05:48:34 GMT

people of the southern maine region, wanna hang out? call me at 251 2929. that is all.

a new poem composed by joshua merrill

Fri, 21 Apr 2006 02:59:43 GMT

hey y'all this is joshua merrill updating colson's livejournal with a new poem

i once tiptoed to the refridgerator
barefoot, on cold tile
bare naked
and i opened it up
and my hair stood up

and i grabbed my penis and peed
in it

i was young
and unwise

and leftovers were not for me

when i sleep walk
i'm chasing dinosaurs

so i don't know

doesn't anyone remember
the poland spring
was red with blood

little girls got their first periods
at the sight of an asterisk

little girls got their periods

in the poland spring water bottle

less to do these days i guess
so i play hopscotch on the
proverbial skulls
of laterday saints

chistmas day

Mon, 26 Dec 2005 03:44:39 GMT

hello all
today was good, after it was the day The ol J.C. was born not me though that's in november, it was warm and raining today, better then cold snow i would have to say. i got some ill stuff and eat way to much food and proceeded to pass out. woke up and have been chillin. i got into usm and got a room in phall down the hall form the miff and joey small, hopefully we can get sticky ( the person, not refering to drugs here) in that mix. well everyone who is in southern maine lets hang out give me a call 251 2929
god bless

oh wow

Thu, 22 Dec 2005 21:03:20 GMT

i forgot i had this shit! if something cool happens i will let you know

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 09:03:00 GMT

things have been real chill for a little while now, and that is fine with me. i have been working and ridding my bike and getting to see all sorts of friends, i have realized my friends are the shit and can change my mood at any time. i am hoping i see more of you kids. if we ain't been rocking out this summer we shoudl party some time you knwo the number or some form of contacting me if you would like, so do it and rocking out will ensue in a great way. ohh yeah i love me bike and the fact i can flavor my own hand roller ciggaretts. i also love to drink. i think that is it peace

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 10:04:41 GMT

i would have to say that drinking ridding my bike smoking ciggaretes and hanging out with friends are my favorite thinsg to do these days in no specific order by the way. i think i will be drinking alot this summer because it is good for me.

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 00:46:35 GMT

what a great day today has been so far. thinsg have been weird seeing old friends and hwo they have changed. for some reason i can't be angry at people anymore which is weird cause i woudl say that use to have a gift for holding grudges.
let go of hope and dreams and see life for what it is; and it will be easier

Tue, 24 May 2005 04:04:39 GMT

today pretty much is the worst day ever! various reasons, ongoing rain and what not. i have been doing nothing and hate it. fuck maine, and a fair amount of the people in it

Thu, 14 Apr 2005 06:09:27 GMT

the past two weeks have been awsome! it's warm out, i can bike, hanging out with cool ass people, and everything is great.

great things that have happend
i landed the 270 i have been trying
" what do you want to do?"
have a good one

Sun, 03 Apr 2005 08:08:01 GMT

hello everyone,
it has been a little while since i have written in here so i though i would. thinsg are going great. It's starting to get warm kenny lau has been home on the weekends, and rocking out has been going down. today all the usdden i just got happy again whihc is nice maybe i will listen to less elliot smith now. well thinsg are good i drank tonight whihc was a treat. it is a sad day regardless of my new found happiness the pope passed which is a horrible thing, i love all of you
have a good one
i'm buying a carton or two tomorrow bicthez, lung cancer here i come

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 06:00:24 GMT

everytime i look at you i loos my mind
no i'm not fine
don't ask questions now
pick up my shit and leave
looking out the wondow of my car
hopeing half a tank will go far
far away from here

no matter what happens i lose
this is your game

don't i make you smile
sometimes i wonder why it's you
and what woudl happen if i liked her
maybe i'd be happy

not matter what happens i lose
this is your game

no longer can i stay this way
i'm sick of losing and being here

i'm drunk
and yoru not here
i think of you with every sip of beer
but my thoughts don't bring you nearer
lossin my mind over this
i can't lose again or i'll quit this game
one last remach
who will win it dosn't matter either way i lose
cause i'm nort the one you chose
just go away
maybe if i can't you see you i will be fine
leave this place behind with you
in the past are my troubles and i will not look back
not looking back

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 07:59:50 GMT

today i got a pipe now i smoke a pipe and solve crimes. if ya need help i'm always here. i also i decided that i should have more fun. less restrictions. it should be good. i need more paint and shit. i need money. i need to ski more before i become a fat fuck again. the lights in my room broke a few days ago i just have been to lazy to swicth the bulbs; anyone wanna do it for me ? i love smoking cigarettes so much, they treat me better then anything/one else they are honest and i knwo they will kill me. i have been listening to death from above 1979, its so goooooood. i am sick. have a good one kids remember smoke and drink it is the key to staying young
rock 'n' roll

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 08:09:40 GMT

grin and bear it, when times get harder and harder, fuck em. why shoudl you let these trials and tribulations get you down. they are just thinsg that happen to everyone regardless of image or what teh person may say when you ask how they are doing. we all hate our lifes at one point or another. no on is happy all the time.
just a little note to all the streesed peoples

my man ricky once said ask enough girls and one is bond to give you head

if you want an ill ricky t-shirt email me or call it they are cheap

i love to yo-yo ( there is no metaphore there, stright up i yo-yo bicth)

odd thoughts that make me laugh althoug they shouldn't
1) seeing someone that i know in a porn
2) my inability to do work ( that one cracks me up)
3) porn in general ( good and funny)
4) my love for a cancer causing product ( it's so fuunny i'm dying over here)
5) parents in general ( funny people/ good but funny)
thats about it for now i really have some midterams that were do last classs that need to be done if i ever want to leave wells

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 09:42:20 GMT

falling from grace

her make-up smeres at the tipes of her fingers and tears
she can't think
she can't see
she can't hear
she can't smell
she can't taste
she can't feel
she cries to release, nothing is relaesed and she still has the world on he back
nothing helps
anything now
she wants anything a feeling pain even missory jsut anything
she reaches for the nearest drink
she grabs the closet pill
anything now
pain
instant bliss hits her
she no longer can remember why she was worried
dancing and singing wit her friends
she forgets
lights brings her into the day
once the light hits her
nothing
she feels nothing
once again she is numb
she needs instant bliss
but in the morning
thers nothing

by joshua colson
this does not have to do with anyone i know just felt like writting it so fuck off if you read into this

the cure for all problems is drugs . right kids?

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 07:43:04 GMT

are we doomed to walk the footsteps of our fathers? are there paths in life or is life just a montage of momments glued together but shotty memories and bysts tales of greatness. can one defy their nature and become whatever they want to be? products of enviroment and products; humans no longer an animal just a means to an end for this place called earth. killing each other and teh land with no remorce for the damage we create. blind eyes look upon us. gods and ideals that havn't been in our lifes directly, govern most of us. are we evil? if so why nto give in? emotions that are similiar to drug use make us weak as if we have been starving for weeks and you hold a plate of steaks. I am evil. We are all evil. mankind can do no right and has done none. the only pure thinsg we enjoy arn't ours like the land we buy that gets sold after we die. nothing is mine or yours. nothingness is the key to life. with no proof for anything else. i have been trained to be a worker bee. but i can't work for i am apathetic and will nto do taht which involves work unless i benefit in an extreme way. time moves on and we grow up. growing up is just giving in to the nothingness that is life. fall to the ground adn pray after this. do you hear a respounce is there a sing? bleed from you eyes and see red. maybe a negative outlook will make you feel something, something that isn't what i feel, i feel nothing and condon all for it is not right or wrong. you may want to see thinsg differently, but when your alone and you think about your life, nothing is there nor will it ever be
this is life
nothing
give in

joshua colson